In karma yoga the Gita refers to inner growth, which should be our ultimate goal for attaining freedom.
Often I find myself filling my day by chasing after countless tasks. I run them habitually by scripts, check lists, saying yes perhaps to another request may be to please someone? Everything goes so fast and by the clock. When I check in with myself at the end of the day every so often instead of feeling peace I feel tired or wired. Why did I not feel connected to my Self? Which kind of actions prevented me to get closer to my goal of freedom or moksha? I know that I want work to become a means of discovering myself! The answer is clear: most of my activities were mechanical duties where rajas & tamas had taken over.
Shunya said one day: you might feel you have loose bricks but over time you’ll have a strong house.
I have been thinking about her words for some time in the context of karma yoga in the Bhagavad Gita where Krishna said in verse 43: You have heaven inside you.
I started taking more time to disconnect! I spent more time in nature. I just sat looked at beauty around me. I found when I aligned myself with nature, I could just be. Nothing needs to be forced. There is so much competitiveness’ but not in nature. It allows for peace. I began to make more space inside myself for guidance, love, silence, appreciation of the natural world, and for self-acceptance.
Just recently I realized that these are sattvic actions and they had given me strength. Strength is needed for a strong house.
With love & light,
Indrani